Gil,
You know I love you. I feel i've loved you forever. Lately, I havent been feeling very well. Truth be told, i'm tired. Out in the desert, under that car that night, I realized something and I havent been able to shake it. Since my father died, i've spent almost my entire life with ghosts. We've been like close friends and, out there in the desert, it occured to me, that it was time for me to bury them. I can't do that here. I'm so sorry. No matter how hard I try to fight it off, I'm left with the feeling that I have to go. I have no idea where i'm going, but I know i have to do this. If i don't, i'm afraid i'll self destruct, and worse, you'll be there to see it happen. Be safe. Know that I tried very hard to stay. Know that you'r my one and only. I will miss you with every beat of my heart. Our life together was the only home i've ever really had. I would'nt trade it for anything. I love you. I always will. Goodbye.